To be frank, im not quite ready for 2011. I mean yes i hope for the better but im scared too. Oh well, we gotta learn to experience life as it goes on huh. 2010 has been one heck of a year. Seriously, time is extremely fast we couldn't even catch up with it. I still cant believe that i got through O levels and right now, holidays are ending and its almost a week left till the results are out!  2010 started out slow and steady although there was panic mode somewhere as it was O levels year but i took it slow. Went through esplanade concert and band investiture where it was our turn to graduate and pass of as alumnis. I told you, first i was in sec 1 and bam, im graduating now! 2010 had alot of struggles going on with relationships with people but it definitely opened my eyes to what is in store for me if i were to keep on living on earth. It has definitely carved me to be a stronger woman so that im able to face these kind of challenges with much lesser stress in the future. I found friends whom i can relate to and who could comprehend me easily without judging me and im thankful for them (Alifah Fazrina Aliah etc). I got to create more friendships and widen my circle of friends. I got closer to my teachers who pushed us and pressured us for O levels. I bonded with my classmates during PPP and banding. OMG I MISS ALL THAT CRAZY STUFF. ): I miss going through that hardwork and sweat! I got to tighten my hanging/long lost friendships. (Ameera Amirul Wanie Zakiah Syimah Maharah Syafiq etc) And no doubt that i did tons of mistakes and screwed up this year but hopefully, i can improve for the better. (: In a nutshell, 2010 was the worst year for me throughout my four years in secondary school but it definitely taught me alot of things and taught me to see things from many angles and not stick to one. And right now, i do not have any purpose when i wake up everyday since i have barely nothing to do at home. 

And now cum 2011, results are gonna be out and im always having crazy images about everything. Im downright scared for the outcome and im seriously not ready to face it. Call me paranoid but thats just me. I get paranoid over the smallest thing, what more RESULTS! ): Okay erase that thought and i still cant believe im no longer a pasirian and an alumni now. Its kinda difficult to absorb that im not going to sit in the parade square and hear Mr Ow give announcements on the first day of school. In jc or poly, i must be able to adapt to the lifestyle with independency as my bestf. No more teachers spoon feeding which im definitely gonna miss. Not only that, i promised myself to no longer bear grudges with people whom i had problems with in 2010 and just go on with life since all of us are going different ways. No point already and furthermore, grudges are unhealthy. OH YES I promised (TRY) myself that i wont be dependent on my parents for money anymore! Ill be learning how to save money so that im able to use it for pretty stuff! Ill too be learning how to work if i go poly and be collecting my money and giving some to my parents and grandparents. Its the least i can do for them right now. I too am trying to have a faster reflex respond if i were to be placed in a position that is difficult for me. (: Im trying my best to not be naive anymore and gullible and believe what everyone says. :/ OH yes i promised my self to come back to band or school whenever i can if there are events going on and not make up stupid excuses. (: So basically, Im definitely gonna miss my secondary friends once we proceed with life and that is the part that im terrified of, not being able to meet lovely people like how i had back then in secondary school. Gonna miss my teachers esp my home teachers! ): But then again, im excited to meet new people and experience post secondary school life with a bit more freedom coming here towards me, i hope. Yeah, im seriously full of a variety of feelings as i typed this. ANYWAY its been decades since i last posted since I dont have the mood to post anything and just felt like going out every single day.~ Its like PSLE all over again where we will part from our pri sch friends and move on to secondary. I guess i will feel like a sec 1 again in 2011. Nyeh. Oh well, im still looking forward to what 2011 has in store for me and im gonna embrace it no matter what. Lets just move on with life. Throw away the bad ones and keep the good memories. YAYYYYY. \m/

OMG WHAT HAPPENED TO MY ENGLISH? NOW ITS JUST BECOMING WORSE!

Alright, I think im so freakin slow in updating stuff. [: Anywayyyyyy, I got through O levels! *cheers* I could still vividly remember me scaring the shit out of myself with the preparation of O levels and now, everything passed so quickly I couldnt even catch the time. And omg my english is deproving. I cant remember how to type properly. -.-  And its been weeks since Ive written anything, my handwriting should be labelled 'distorted' by now. Ive only been typing and typing and typing........ YEAH pretty much that. Anywayyyyyyy, Cambridge was being mean this year. They practically made everything harder. Okayyy, not EVERYTHING. E maths was alright. Yeah, only that was alright. English summary was difficult. Physics paper 3 was like a mini pure version. -.- Chemistry was tricky. A maths P2 was ......... (fill in the blanks) SS and history SBQ was difficult, tsk! I gave up halfway for HMT cos i couldnt do it. Lost tons of marks, i guess. I seriously hope for a miracle where i can pass my HMT. Just pass will do. Last day of O levels was srsly crazyyyy. Went to eat after that w my gals and we were discussing abt prom, preparation all. Went window shopping after that with Ameera and we jotted down shops that sells cheap stuff. So basically, my last day of O levels was alright. 

 

 Ok next was prommm. Went shopping on tuesday w my gals and found a dress but mommy wasnt happy. So went shopping again on thurs and finally got a dress. Prom was definitely seriously crazy. Pre prom preparation was extremely hectic. We were screaming here and there when we couldnt find stuff in my messy room. Aliah was freaking out when she havent curled her hair. But it was all worthwhileeee. Khalishah's dad sent us there and yayyy, everyone looked so pretty and hansem! Mr leong brought along his baby and omg super cute! Congrats to zaf and yszr for winning prom king and queen respectively! And Aaron told stuff that made me feel really bad for my dearest classmate. Stay strong yeah VC! The music was so blaring and I used dancing time to snap piczx instead. I wanted to take pics with more people but they left so sooon. Didnt get to take pic with billy, teachers, clarice and many more! ): And get well soon dee, i know youre sick right on prom. Spent a few minutes snapping picszx after prom w the sec 5s that i know and also sec 4Ns in the room. Snap more piczx outside w my teentitans and all. My legs couldnt take my heels anymore so I headed home after that. I was sad though that not all E7s were there. ): In conclusionnnn, prom was not bad afterall! Although it was tiring and all, it was definitely one of the events that we, as a cohort get together and enjoyyyy.

Alright, so right now, im just staring into blank space, computer, facebook, glee, 90210, gossip girl, movies, eat, sleep, drink. Yeah, pretty much those stuff im doing during these holidays. I just watched harry potter ytd and it was better then half blood prince, definitely. I cant wait for part 2!!!! Cried when dobby died! ): Oh well, right now, im just waiting for time to pass by. K NO NOT WAITING FOR TIME TO PASS BY. THAT WILL BE INSANE COS RESULTS ARE IN JAN AND I DONT WANT THAT MOMENT TO COME KNOCKING IN TO MY HEAD NOW. Right now, im enjoying hols. Malaysia will be in dec and im going back to band when i can! So yeahhh, my holidays are occupied with non-beneficial stuff. Somehow, i miz studying. ^^

 Omg its just two more days to hari raya. And seriously, im not that excited since prelims is just around the corner. But once i hear old hari raya songs, a teeny weeny bit of me says "yay, hari raya!" and then once i stop hearing them ill be like "hari raya? ok lorh." Tsk, what a way to celebrate hari raya. Physically, ill be at people's houses. Mentally, ill be trying to remember whats the formula for area of a sector. Pity, I miss listening to hari raya songs and singing them when i was in sec 2. Nevertheless, raya songs with my bestf and syazana alr! ^^ Holidays were spent chilling, spring cleaning (my room), watching movies, studying. Clash of the titans was awesome. Quite a replica of percy jackson actually. Toy story 3 was sweeet. Camp rock 2 was better then number 1! I watched syurga cinta again. I love making this whole post thing be in the centre, its coool. -.- Ok, a normal O level student cant wait to get O levels done and over with and im talking post O-level period with helmi and i feel so excited typing everything. Oh well, i havent even clear prelims. :/

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN HOR.

Its been so long since Ive slept at 2:30am and I did it yesterday! \m/ Awesumz. Thanks sya for that whole long chat we had yesterday and the advices! ^^  Thanks helmi for like making me distress with random questions.  And thanks naufal for annoying the shit out of me. I had a really good night yesterday with hist essays to keep me accompany! [: Cant wait for iftar tonight!